Confused, Scared, Worried....

I'm thinking of making a big switch in my job... From shift to office hours and from acute settings to a more personal care setting but.... I'm not sure if i should make this huge change....

1. I'm worried tat i may not like the job scope but it be slower pace then where i'm in now.
2. It be office hours so i get fixed time and i'll get weekends and all my PHs!!! Yappy...
3. The sister may not be nice to work with but amm guess most of the things i'll be doing on my own so wat's there to worry.. Maybe suffer in the beginning as she may not want to share her knowledge with me but information can be found every where.. Just need take more steps to find an answer but if there's a will there's a way.... I survived till now anyway.. Wat's new... Moreover who can be worst then the ones i'm facing now...
4. Sob Sob.. Lesser pay... PAY CUT!!! But cannot complain cuz the benefit of fix work time... The extras i earn is from the odd hours i work all these years...

All in all.. I feel im a little bias in wat im writing cuz all i feel now is i wat to get out of that freaking place who only make use of me to the fullest!!!! This world is never fair i know but this ward i'm in is tooo much...
Not like i didn't contribute or put in effort to prove i can but all i did, credit is taken away and i cannot even make a single noise...
PPl get to go conference, even ppl more junior then me went but me? Nothing... Not even a chance...
I get push around cuz got enough staff inside so i'm send out to work... They called me EXTRAs...
I get chances when she got no one else in mind to... SO im a backup... But she put to me tat is like well u are so so but i'm giving u this chance... SO be it i feel like spiting in out on her face... If i'm tat bad then ask the rest... Why me.. Safe the humiliation and discouragement cuz i don't feel tat i'm bad... PPL in her fave books are ppl who cannot work but only good at talking and bluffing their way around at work and make others clear their shit... These are the bunch which she feels they are good.... PPl who work their asss off at work she cannot see...
I feel dishearten to go to work each day and feel very upset.. Tears fall off my cheeks at times when i travel to work for no reason and i feel depressed at work most of the time now a days...
THose who can work are my friends at work but we are deliberately being put on different shifts..
I ask myself this question everyday.. Why I"M still in this bloody place call helll... ANS: I don't know.... I really don't know.... Before my advance Dip i asked myself this question too, i was in serious depression tat time as nothing could make me smile at all at work.... But i stayed on.... 8 years i have been suffering and still the same question pops up and the ans is always the same... "I DONT KNOW WHY I AM HANGING ON TO THIS PLACE"
THe only thing i"ll miss would prob be the friends whom have guided me and supported me through all these 8 years and without them i'll not have survived!!

Weekend Outings...

Sat we went over to Raffles Marina to check out the location...
They have lawn wedding or wedding at their bistro... I love the ambiance there... The boats there as a back drop.. And Its OUTDOOOR... =) Ah PIg like the Bistro but i like the lawn.. Bistro can cater 150 guest but hehe we still do not have a guest list...
Ah Pig like the food menu as they have a variety to choose from, buffet style... Not the usual sit down dinner... This place is KIV as Ah Pig say need bring my parents down see too.. Hehe... "So sweet"..
But i told him no proposal yet so why my parents involved? Haha... =p

We still have Changi Village hotel in view as their pool side ROM is attractive as u get sunset as the backdrop and will be beautiful is weather is good....

Well amm apart from guest list, we still have the date to count... Amm 2011 seems so far but yet it so near with so many things to prepare...
Excited("yappy been waiting for this day to come"), worried("wow got like 101 things on hand to plan and do"), doubtful(" is this for real").... Its a whole lot of mix feelings...

Sunday went cycling.. Been a long time i last went cycling.... GOt my sis along... Fun and we even saw a filming crew... Pics up soon... Have get from AH PIG HP...

.... Indian Wedding ....

Our family 1st time attending an Indian style wedding and its all Vegi food... Buffer style...
The prayers started at like 7.30 but as usual not all there.. Sylvia concluded tat all wedding in Singapore the same... All will start late and think Indian wedding the worst... Started to eat close to 9pm but the prAYers still going on... The groom's father was so happy we went and keep thanking us...






Oh ya sis manage to wear the clothing she ask dad to get from india... She said she bland in the crowd.

...Disappointed... =(

A phone call today woke me up from my sleep.. Ward cannot get me cuz they don't have my contacts.. 7 1/2 yeARS there and don't have my contact... Called my BF gotten my house number as my HP is off and ask me go back work PM shift... Hop shit... "I didn't want..." Be it if i got to work another 10 DAYS to my next off.. I rather work 10 days then to go back today esp when i got programme tonight...

Disappointed cuz ppl only think for themselves.... I could have not need work outside in ICA if they haved asked me do night shift and the one who got MC go out to work but ppl didn't do tat but ask me hop ### shit to go back work in CCU this PM with sickening staffing and someone from pm shift do the night... Not logical.. Never has it been done tat way... I am disappointed with the one who came up with the idea so as to gain from the situation...

Friends.... Is there really any at all? I guess Sebastian right from the beginning..
"NO ONE IS UR FRIEND AT WORK, NOT EVEN IF IS UR BEST FRIEND!!!"

Cable car to Santosa is demolished...

The Cable car which was one of the mode of transport is sold and taken down bit by bit...
Sad it's being taken away.. Didn't get a chance to sit on it one last time...

Flowers and New added plant outside my house....



Bought these two pot of Mosquitoes plant cuz last month got lots inside the house... Think it work if not is the town counsel did their work to check the roof top..


Mum got this from 4gu as a gift... Amm.. Told her not to buy cuz actually mum never like all these...

Happy New Year....

2009 has just slip past and today is 2010.01.01... The year has passed by so quickly... The last day of the year was spent with my family at vivo... The usual Marina place we always went to view the firework display was closed for construction so we had to make do to vivo but the firework display was so little and blocked off.. But the important thing was tat we spent the last few hours together having dinner and picnic at vivo... Xiao Gu said "Don't be disappointed, treat it as a family outing".. Yap agree except dad's not around...
Pics be up soon...
Happy 2010.... May it be a good year and everyone be Happi throughout the year...



Last month also celebrated Ah gong Bday.. 77years old...