My experiance working in GENERAL WARD!!!

Went to work and was taking report 1/2 way through when i heard my name mentioned from behind sis room.. The next moment i was told that i need to go to 47 to work.. My goodness.. In my entire working life i never worked in a general ward and i need to take 12 patients..
I was so lost and i felt like crying.. I wish this is not happening to me.. Why me cuz normally it's the most Junior on that day be sent and that's not me... To rub salt to the wound, some b***** sis came and told jokingly told all the 47 staff, "I send my staff up she not happy lei.."
I just felt so small at that point of time..
I was trying hard to cope with the stress i was going through and the ic sis Lee came to me and talk to me and she can understand my stress of 1st time working in a GW as she too been through it.. She also told me wat she went through before i went up to help.. Then she thank me for going up to help.. Well not like i had a choice but at least it's comforting..
I also feel tat being in her shoes is hard.. it's tough, with pile of work to do, staying for like 2 shifts to complete her work and to need to face ppl, boss, who may be unreasonable at times!! I admire all the GW sister who's like her..
Anyway i had a ok day at wd 47... Patients ok and with helpful SN and ENs.. They were nice and helpful..
Then docs and even patient's relatives ask me and ask why i was up there.. At that moment in time i thought to myself tat actually i'm not so Small but just unappreciated by some ppl..
BUT i don't care.. They are not ppl who i nurse..
i don't wan to be hurt by these ppl and make me upset..

I was packing my room on my RD and found this which i wrote 8 years ago in class..